“But the second she opened her eyes and looked at me, I knew. She was either going to be the death of me . . . or she was going to be the one who finally brought me back to life.”
“What rules?”
“Well, for one, I’m not allowed to break your heart,” he says. “Second, I’m also not allowed to break your damn heart. And last, I’m not allowed to fucking break your damn heart.”
“Hearts get infiltrated.
Promises get broken.
Rules get shattered.
Love gets ugly.”
“Whoever coined the phrase, I love you to death obviously never experienced the kind of love Tate and I share. If that were the case, the phrase would be I love you to life. Because that’s exactly what Tate did. She loved me back to life.”
“The smaller the house, the more a family is forced to love one another.”
“You make it so hard to breathe.”
“The ugly parts of love can’t lift you up.
They bring you
D
O
W
N.
They hold you under.
Drown you.
You look up and think, I wish I was up there.
But you’re not.
Ugly love becomes you.
Consumes you.
Makes you hate it all.
Makes you realize that all the beautiful parts aren’t even worth it. Without the beautiful, you’ll never risk feeling this.
You’ll never risk feeling the ugly.
So you give it up. You give it all up. You never want love again, no matter what kind it is, because no type of love will ever be worth living through the ugly love again.
I’ll never let myself love anyone again, Rachel.
Ever.”
“I’m terrified to lose him for good, so I sell myself short and take what I can from him, even though I know I deserve better.”
“You deserve so much more than what you're allowing yourself to have.”
“When you kiss, you can close your eyes. You can kiss away the thoughts. You can kiss away the pain, the doubt, the shame. When you close your eyes and kiss, you protect yourself from the vulnerability.”
“If you love me more today than you loved me yesterday, then I can’t wait for tomorrow,” she says.”
“He’s everywhere.
Everything is Miles.
That’s how it is when a person develops an attraction toward someone. He’s nowhere, then suddenly he’s everywhere, whether you want him to be or not.”
“If you don't want a sarcastic answer, don't ask a stupid question”
“It’s funny how he refuses to make eye contact during sex yet can’t seem to keep his eyes off me the rest of the time.”
“What’s the point of continuing this if we know it won’t end well?” I ask her
“Because we don’t know how to stop.”
“If being with Tate for a few short months can make that pain bearable enough for you to answer with maybe, imagine what a lifetime with her could do for you.”
“This felt like an end. I'm not sure I was ready for this to be end. I'm not sure I was ready for there ever to be an end, and I hate myself for allowing my feelings to get to that point.”
“There were moments I didn't care if I ever hurt again, because being with you almost felt worth the potential pain.”
“His lips against mine feel like everything. Like living and dying and being reborn, all at the same time.”
“You bend the laws of the universe when you fly," I say. "It's impressive. Defying gravity? Watching sunrises and sunsets from places Mother Nature didn't intend for you to watch them from? You really are superheroes, if you think about it.”
“I know the thought of confronting your past terrifies you. It terrifies every man. But sometimes we don’t do it ourselves. We do it for the people we love more than ourselves.”
“Jesus Christ, Tate, you’re staring at his damn crotch!”
“As soon as he comes into view, I lose the war. The war I didn't even know I was fighting. It doesn't happen often, but when I do find a guy attractive, it's better when it happens with a person I want it to happen with”
“I’m not Tate when I’m near Miles. I’m liquid, and liquid doesn’t know how to be firm or stand up for itself. Liquid flows. That’s all I want to do with Miles.
Flow.”
“God gave me a lot of great things to accomplish in my life, and right now, I’m so far behind I ain’t ever gonna die.”
“I keep waiting for the day when it will hurt less. When I won't miss him as much”
“The only thing that could possibly seperate me from him right now would be a bolt of lightening. Or the fact that it's raining so hard I can't breathe.”
“If I were capable of loving someone . . . it would be you.”
“I suppose if a man lived through the ugliest side of love, he might never want to experience it again.”
“It may be a small piece at a time, but my past is yours now. All of it. Anything you want to know, I want to tell you. But only if you promise me I can also have your future.”